Can I call you that? Are you used to it yet?
Has it sunk in that this beautiful new creature is now dependant on you for the next 18 years.. minimum? If it hasn’t, I’ll give it a sec.
It kinda just happened, hey?
You awaited this time from the moment you saw those little pink lines. But it wasn’t smack dab right in the middle of your face then.
Now it is and it’s overwhelming. It’s ok to admit.
Your whole life changed just moments ago. God only knows what state your body is in.. but you’re too focused on this little miracle to care.
Heck, you’d probably do it all over again at the drop of a hat.
But.. I’ll give you a second to think on that.
Your panicking in bed, laying there trying to doze off but all you can think is ‘was it 4ml or 5?’ You read it 10 times but now it’s all a fog.
I’ve been there.
Google will become your best friend. Your go to even over your real best friends. Who, will get put on the back burner no matter how much you think you’ll swing it all. Just like showering, your social, sex, and life in general.
But that’s OK.
And it’s normal to feel overwhelmed. To feel like giving up or that you can’t do it. To feel like it should be easier. To feel 5000 things, to be honest, because your body is digesting a hormone cocktail that you didn’t sign up for.
But you know what, that worry, that fear, is disguised behind how much you care to do this right. And I applaud you new momma and I’m on the side lines cheering. And, most days crying behind closed doors, with you in mind.
This. To. Shall. Pass.
The late nights. The lonesome, tireless, mundane routine feeling that ALL you do is put your robotic, new mom bod, into motion day in and day out. The thankless feeling of being the only one running an assembly line will pass.
Rather, it will shift.
It’ll shift to an easier mode and you will start to get used to this little energy sucker AKA precious little gift of life.
It. Will. Happen. I promise. Until then, take solice in the fact that you are not alone.
So you, new momma, with the over exhausted new face you now sport daily, and the beautiful life you’ve created all nestled up in your safe, warm, inviting arms, hold your baby tight and know that this is exactly where you need to be in this moment.
“Many women are not prepared for the wide range of feelings they may have after the birth of their baby. They often experience sadness, anger, guilt, anxiety, worry or a sense of inadequacy. Every mother is different and may have different combinations of feelings.”
– sourced from http://www.ppdil.org/symptoms-of-ppmds
**On an ending note if this overwhelming feeling lasts too long/ you feel something just isn’t right- there is help out there! Post partum is a real thing that isn’t to be shamed! I’ve had it and am currently managing depression and anxiety as a busy mom.
You don’t have to suffer alone.
There are people who care, who’ve been there and CAN help. Here are some resources.